2012

2012 Determination 

Here it is the middle of the year already. I am continuing to gain and complain. Which by the way just in case you didn't know, does not do any good what-so-ever. In fact, it only makes it worse for me. Let me just tick away at all my bad habits as well as health issues related to these habits so that you and I can see it in black and white.

~Insomnia along with Restless Leg Syndrome
~Plantar Faciitis in both feet
~Constant heartburn
~Constant exhaustion
~ill often with tons of mucus
~carpel tunnel
~knee/joint pain
~back and neck pain
~acne on face and back
~awful digestive system
~unable to conceive
~self consciousness
~uncomfortable in my own skin majority of my awake hours
~barely eating throughout the day then eating an extremely unhealthy dinner around 10p.m. every night.

I see and understand that all this is due to my lack of any resemblance of a healthy lifestyle. I also understand I tend to kick myself into gear every 6 months or so with it lasting two weeks before some internal switch shuts off. I say I can do anything I set my mind to...for two weeks and then BOOM...nothing. This time I need to make it work or the damage I am doing to my body will be almost irreversible. Heart conditions run on both sides of my family. Being this overweight with practically zero activity, I am just asking for major issues sooner rather than later.

I feel this time will be different in the fact that I will have my very best friend/husband along for this journey. He is more than determined to also lose his weight as well as become physically fit. Seeing him so strong in his goal I can't help but feel overall excitement for what is to come for both of us. Having a workout buddy is always beneficial not to mention someone that will be eating the same healthy meals along side me. Here are my goals again in black and white so that I can see them for my own eyes.

I am currently (at my very heaviest ever) = 215.0lbs
My height is around 5'5 to 5'6
MY GOAL WEIGHT IS 140.0lbs 
That means a total weight loss of 75.0lbs
Moussa (my husband) is wanting to lose 60lbs so our goals are at least pretty close.

This time I (we) will be doing this the old fashion unavoidable way, with a combination of exercise and decreased calorie intake. I am trying to avoid the word Diet to make it less frightening. I look at diets as a quick solution to losing and gaining even more back. I should know I have done it more times than I want to think about.

My strongest motivation is to be healthy enough to conceive then have an easier time with pregnancy as well as hopefully a less painful labor.  I also would like to be conditioned enough to be able to bounce back after having a baby.